my mind

heres and insight into what i do and why:
i smoke to dissapoint people around me, therfore the ones who care will still be there
im cocky to hide my insecurity about my personality, therfore barely anyones knows the real me
i like hatred because it shows either the haters jelousy against me or insecurity about there own self, therfore showinng its not only me
im generous with everything that i have because you cant do no harm with giving, therfore im helping people which is what i love
im laid back all of the time as your averaged about 80something years in life and thats too short to care about most things
i hardly sleep because 1. i find it difficult as there is too much going on in my mind,2. i feel there is no need,3. there is more important things that should be done,4 i struggle to drift off and last but not least at night/morning (1 am onwards) is the only time im alone and peaceful which helps clear my head and enables me to think straightly
i let people cause me physical pain becausei cut out pain easily as i have unbelievable amounts of selfcontrol over my mind which enables me to channel and cut out the pain being inflicted
i class myself as shy beacause my self confidence is rock bottom, always has been with strangers.
and thats all i can think of atm i hope you enjoy your insight to my strange mind..

wondeful creations

poems are a wonderful creation
they start a revalation
within my mind
most are not too kind
they hurt
alot
wish it could be you that i forgot
but its not
my minds racing
i keep on pacing
your the one im chasing
but im too far behind
why cant we go back?
take a rewind
back to the old days
when we were close?
were drifting now
i want us together
but i dont know how
its impossible
us apart is inevitable
im too young to care?
but i do
its rare

we will never be the same

we will never be the same your just to hard to tame
its not you i blame
i love the way you came
and left your many flames
no silly games
i cant work out if im still sane?
as fragile as a window pane
thats how we are
this shouldnt go to far
thats me gone