same old me

same old me
feeling sorry for myself
i know its no good for my health
but what can i do?
there is only you
only you on my mind
your one of a kind
soo hard to find
some one like you
but thats irrelevent
but you feelings are not evident
it all started within a tent
im not your average gent
but its over now
and i dont know how
but this is enough
this was rather tough
im done
this was no where near fun
should i run?
or can i cope?
we can only hope
for us both
we will see
and so will he
i think its coming to an end
now you will only be my friend
but on the road of life there are many bends
people are not hard to mend

right about now

my life right about now isnt the best it has been tbf.. although i now know who is my friend and who isnt! since college life began i have realised who i can trust and who i cant.. the closest people! but still after all that my life isnt that good.. people believe i hate my life? i want to fail? i am pissing about? your all wrong. my life isnt the best but i dont hate it, there is many more lives out there worse than mine! i have mostly what i want, mostly what i need. one thing in life i want is to succeed, i dont want to fail anyone! but i haved failed many times and many people already. im not "pissing about" im only enjoying the life i have been blessed with, making the days as fun as possible, enjoying the time i have left on this beautifully fucked up planet! live how you want to live! and i will live how i want.. keeping it real and keeping as sane as possible but at the same time being insanely fucked up in a banterful way.. i fucking love it! and you know what if you are close to me you should love it to! no way im changing at any time in my life! in times of sadness you realise alot! the good and the bad.. but thats another blog for another time! bless you all who read this!

normality

what is normality? is it being socially accepted? or following the crowd? or just generally being nothing in life? in my eyes there is no normality.. there is what you make! there is no wierd as you do what you want to do.. doesnt make you wierd, doesnt make you normal just makes you, you! normaity is bollocks! its just based on people who dont like what you do.. same with wierdness?

nearly everyday i say "cba to do anything" but i always end up blogging, does that mean anything? i do not know.. but anyway best be off..au revoiur people!

murder

i dont know if this is just me that wonders this but anyway.. in my life.. watching csi throughout my whole life and many other crime related programs i have always wondered what it would feel like to murder someone? i want to know what it would make you feel? the adreneline? or whatever it brings.. i have always wondered, it doesnt make me phsycotic.. im not gonna go out and murder someone for the sake of wondering, its just my curiousity!

p.s BIG SHOUT OUT TO MA MAIN GALLY DEEDEE!

life!

people have alot of different perspectives on life.. some people think its about money some about love.. there is even some people that dedicate there life to god? but personally i have no dedication for my life.. i think life should be lived.. live it to the full doing whatever you wish and that is how i intend to live mine! if money comes my way money comes my way.. if love coems my way love comes my way, but at the end of the day im not gonna go out looking for these things! im gonna live.. and if these things come to me i will embrace them and take them on the chin! if these things were meant to be in my life they will be! they will somehow make there way in! so thats why  from now on i have decided im gonna live my life to the max! not a care in the world.. dont give a fuck about what anybody thinks cos im me no one will change that! always gonna be me the same old me and if you like it im glad if you dont, which i know there are many of you who dont, then thats fine with me dont talk to me

so what now?

confusion is a horrible feeling!.. you always seem to know what to say to make me smile.. everytime? i dont get it.. you say something that isnt even funny or cute or anything but i smile? its beyond me.. but what i do know is you say the cutest things ever and when you do i smile uncontrolably every single time...i want you.. im starting to need you!

anywayssssss aside from all that shit i would like to say i admire the fuck out of the people on dirty sanchez.. what a way to live your life so much banter would love to be one of them! fucked up shit but it is class fucking love em!

damn

im sorry it made you look like a cunt.. i didnt mean to? i didnt even think it made you look like anything.. it doesnt.. i told one story.. one little fucking story and you hate? nothing to it.. just a story.. no meaning behind it, just explaining what made my blogs so depressing that was it no intentions of anything else.. but you hate me? you wont even listen to what i have to say? ill probaly be forgotten tomorow.. meant nothing.. you really believe i would make you out to be a cunt to someone when i think the fucking world of you.. i fucking adore you! i think everything of you. more than that even and you think i would fucking make you a cunt.. giong out now.. dunno what time i will be back or what im doing but i will finish this later..

please at least give me the decency of at lease reading this? i love you